Am I the Only One?

Sometimes, I feel like I'm the only one who can't seem to figure out this faith thing. Am I the only one who longs for more of Jesus, to have a faith that looks more like Paul's rather than Lot's? A faith that seems more authentic and bears more of the fruit of Christ? I crave to be light in the world and stop looking just like the world. I am tired of being afraid, uncourageous, and conformed to this world.

Am I the only one who is tired of a Christianity that seems nothing like Jesus? A lukewarm Christianity? I'm weary of the robotic, formulaic nature of the Church, where there is a lack of spirit. I'm exhausted by the cycle of repetition, where we continue doing the same things "over and over again," yet what changes? We are stuck in a loop but refuse to change directions, the definition of insanity.

I yearn to be a living sacrifice, a branch firmly connected to the vine, and to serve as God's hands and feet in this world. I am tired of the world and Satan having a hold on me. I long to live out the purpose God created me for before my time on this earth ends.

Where are you?

I recognize the solution: our need for spiritual maturity. Spiritual maturity is what I'm working towards, but I wonder, am I alone in this quest? Have other Christians already attained it, and if so, why aren't they reaching out to assist those who are struggling? If you've found how to live for Jesus, immerse yourself in His love, and glorify God, I'd value your encouragement and support.

But for those facing these challenges, why can't we be authentic, transparent, and support one another? Why can't we stop being disillusioned and start being truthful? Maybe when we humbly realize we are all in the same boat, we can help each other—stop going in the wrong direction and start rowing in the right direction. Let us help each other seek the Kingdom of God—so that all these things shall be added unto us.

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ~ Matthew 6:33